The learning never ends

What can I say about all the living examples of love that have crept or barged their way into my life?  And all of those examples of " love lite" (like Mr. Windbag) that connect me to my well of compassion.  There is nothing like the struggle to find the positive in a moment that loosens the serious grip we have on our particular version of reality. And every so often, an outright gift of a person makes their way into one's real world. For me, it is a person who takes time to say or do something nice for me. Who takes the time to smile, or call, or write, or see me--ala Avatar. How often do we really see a person--the framework that their personality is constructed around? Inside their latest hairdo (or lack of hair), their posturing or lack thereof, their fashion sense or ......

Many of us hide our more tender loving sensitive content as a protective measure. The concept of protection has its implications obvious or not. Otherness. All of the new-agers and spiritualists talk about our unity--our implicit oneness. I talk about it. It is hard to wrap your head around this fact/idea isn't it? Because there is me in my little life with my curly hair and affinity for poetry and there is you and you and you with your unique physical looks and qualities and affinities. How are we all one?

A really lovely little excerpt from a channeling session with Carla Rueckert and the Principle of Q'uo* gives a little primer on our connectedness:

Imagine that you, spirit just born, sprung from the Creator’s fertile love, sailed through many, many universes and saw many, many beautiful stars, constellations, vibrations of being-ness and through many, many densities, many, many experiences you moved that infant soul until there was a choice, a preference, a bias. This star, this constellation, this planet. And one day you were water, or earth, or rock, or rain, or wind, or sand. And your incarnations had begun. Was this unity then forgotten? Not in the deep mind. This essential unity remains that truth which for all, moving through the densities, cannot be denied, for it is felt within as a heart’s truth. It is not that you are like others—rather, you are all that there is. This is your foundation. This is that plinth upon which you build that creation which turns stone to statue and form to life. This is the rock upon which you may stand. You are one.

Our unity is that basic--on the particulate level and beyond, we all share the stuff of creation. It is laughable, then, that we battle and profile each other based on the stuff of our physicality--on our created and developed personalities. Laughable and the cause of all of our problems. So how do we change our perceptions? By recognizing the gift of "other" people in our lives--the joyous reflection of that shared stuff we are. If you find someone lovely and admirable go ahead and claim your connection! That awesome woman or man is indeed a part of you, for you are admiring those same admirable traits innate within yourself--dormant, slightly hidden, or already actualized.

I will share another gift with you--one that arrived in paperback from the keeper of all-- Amazon;-} This is a Bob Hicok poem from his newest collection called Words for Empty and Words for Full:

See Side

 Mind as wave: whoosh. As wet. As yet

thinking needs a dress to wear, what better look

than sea green or sea foam, within

never gets out without without, how cool

is that, that the sealed self's 

not an option, hence the object of my affection's

conception. As in, I notice you 

on your boogie board, therefore I exist 

to see you're bad at balance, a savant

of oops. The fall's all we've perfected,

reaching for the apple with the words of our hands,

the yums, the Henny Pennys at our disposal.

I come onely, you two. Boo hoo. Group hug, the all 

of us, this wave charging hard, foaming 

at the mouth, as if to slather with embrace.

Thanks to Bob Hicok for his lovely squirming, phrase-laden sensibility.

*The Principle of Q'uo is a group of entities from the Confederation of Planets, consisting of those of Ra, Latwii, and Hatonn representing wisdom from the 4th-6th densities.

The bus ride home

I have been riding the bus to and from work for about 4 years now. As you can imagine it has given me an opportunity to experience other people in a way my life's routines would never allow. Sharing the morning commute with others allows you to be a part of  the beginning of their days, and the evening commute, a shared relief. We are often in close quarters. Mostly we do not speak with each other, but looks are exchanged--an occasional nicety here and there. There is a sense we are all in it (this lovely grind) together.

The overwhelming majority of my 4 years of public transportation experience has been positive. Except. There is one older guy--on my commute home--for the last almost two years--who has been a catalyst for me. He brought out disdain, disgust, annoyance--you name the negative emotion, and I probably have felt it in this man's presence. Loud, obnoxious, self destructive, he was a person I avoided at every turn. And if you sat anywhere close to him, you became a target for his one-sided conversation.

Ah, but when you are a seeker and striving to love unconditionally, you must take a look at these opportunites that come into your life. The light bulb over my head was certainly one of those coiled eco-friendly numbers that do not immediately pop on. Mr. Windbag was a gift for me. I began to look at why it was he made me so angry. His selfishness (he spoke very loud interrupting anyone trying to read or listen to music), brashness, critical nature (he liked to point out physical flaws in others), obvious self loathing--he is a self-proclaimed chain-smoking alcoholic--all made him a package I wanted to trash-can.

I observed his progression from getting around ok, to using a cane, to slowing down incredibly due to physical impediments--arthritis I think. There was less wind in his sails--less bite to his bark and I let myself feel a small amount of compassion and sent him my love and caring. It was a baby step.

Last week Mr. W was there waiting at his usual stop, but moving very slowly. He was subdued and battered, a gash on his forehead--several teeth missing. But clean shaven. The floodgates opened, and  I felt bad about my cumulative negative feelings about this tattered soul, and wished I could help him in some small way. Easy to be compassionate when the object is pitiful, right? Not so easy when the object is powerful and arrogant!

Tuesday, the bus stopped at his regular pick up place. There was Mr. W--sitting on a bench trying to get himself up to get to the bus. He couldn't. The bus sat--we all looked out at him struggling. Light bulb again. AS this was apparently my moment to be of service, I went out to help him. As he struggled to stand he dropped his pint of vodka, and stooping to grab it he started to fall--he was plastered. I grabbed him, and his vodka (how about these plastic bottles) and helped his slow progress to the bus, and to a seat. I handed him his pint. He spent the next 10 minutes trying to put it in his pocket. Another man offered to help, and he barked at the guy.

We exited at the same stop so my heart was in my throat knowing I would again offer help even if he didn't want it. It took him a long time to get up and out of the bus--while the other passengers waited to get on. I walked with him very slowly until he got his bearings and asked him if he was ok. "Yep"--he barked, still proud, still struggling to be someone of value. As I walked away he said "I'll see you in my dreams."

I spent alot of time separating myself from this man and his ugly behavior. I recoiled when I saw his nasty habits. Perhaps I saw the potential in myself for that kind of life. They say when we react negatively to other people we are often reacting to our own shortcomings and fears--looking into the mirror that other people provide for us. That is something to look for and be aware of as we go about our days.

In order to deal lovingly with the dark side of others, we must see and accept our own--and that is difficult!

Q'uo says: One's relation to one's dark side should be one of gratitude and love, for the dark side is that which strengthens and enables the light side. Each experience of the dark side of self is that which burns away pride and egotism. It is well when one sees that side of self which has those vices and sins, if you will, in abundance, not to turn away but rather to embrace, to love, to accept and to forgive that part of self for being.

I wonder how much longer I will encounter Mr. W on the ride home? Anyway, my gratitude goes out to a most unlikely angel.

Heart sick

Monday morning I arrived to work, put on NPR and heard of the massacre in a small Nigerian village--many many of the women and children were slaughtered as they tried to escape their burning homes. The attackers used machetes to hack the innocents to death. Apparently this action was religiously and politically motivated, and possibly geared towards limiting the Christian ethnic population by targeting the women. I was sick to my stomach all day and evening.

Folks, we have an awful lot of work to do. Now is the time to be beacons of light in a seemingly dark world.

During the Saturday meditation at Camelot (Carla and Jim's place), Carla clarified for me some information channeled back on Feb.11, 2007  about how we have been given extra time to progress as a civilization before the earth totally transitions into 4th density.

The February session revealed some newly worded information about the shift into 4th density vibration. Q'uo* stated that the culture existing on earth was put on a time lateral in quarantine by the Guardians* because we were not progressing quickly enough towards harvest. The reason such a step was taken was due in part to the worries that our earth had been negatively impacted by the addition of so many from Maldek* etc that had destroyed their planets and had to join our third density Earth to continue learning lessons of love. This heavy influx of primitive souls (perhaps not the best terminology) has maybe slowed our progress towards harvest significantly enough to warrant the time lateral and quarantine.

What is this time lateral really? I asked Carla for clarification/her thoughts on this recently. She described the time lateral as a train track running parallel to the main line, and as our planet completes the transition to fourth density, the lateral track may either join it, or be left behind. This lateral track stretches time--elongates time as we know it eeking out every little moment possible to augment the positive. Though Carla said the fight for this lateral train has been a difficult one, as those of the Service to Self path continue their efforts at Empire building, she feels confident that we will reach a tipping point to allow this "rejoining"to happen. Q'uo expressed confidence in this outcome as well. The tipping point may be like Ken Wilber's AQAL tipping point of 10% of the population on a service to others path. (AQAL stands for All Quadrants All Levels---a fascinating "Theory of Everything". If you are so inclined, check out Wilber's website-link above. If you know me you can hit me up for my copy of his book.)

The quarantine (Ra spoke of this in The Law of One material) basically has kept entities from further joining the earth's population, giving we current residents time to work out/chose a positive service to others path. At any rate, in this same session Q'uo maintains the transition will be complete at the winter solstice of 2011--one less year to do our work!

And there is still much work to be done as we can easily see from this past weekend's brutality. A dedication to being the best possible person you can be in this lifetime is all anyone can ask of you. Each and every one of us can add our weight to the scales.

*Q'uo is a group of entities from the Confederation of Planets, consisting of those of Ra, Latwii, and Hatonn representing wisdom from the 4th-6th densities.

*The Guardians-are a group of 24 entities that watch over our planet and our solar system.

*Maldek-a planet of 3rd density in our solar system whose population literally destroyed it due to their technologically advanced warring ways.

Wanderers (Seekers) Unite

This weekend a wish of mine came true. Back in the post  Are you a wanderer? I mentioned Carla Rueckert, the lady who channeled the Ra information (The Law of One) oh so many years ago in 1981-2. I said that I would someday love to meet her. On Saturday I did just that, at a channeling meditation at her home. Her husband Jim was also present--he of the original group of three who participated in that momentous gathering of other-worldly knowledge. Reading the lengthy and often difficult Law of One books, was another revelation, much as the Seth books were for me ever so recently. So you can imagine my anticipation!

This channeling business seems very magical to me--and I am in awe of the process and of those who can be an instrument of such an interaction. You can imagine my heart in the throat feeling as I walked into their door. I brought some flowers from my garden (yes it is still winter, but the Hellebore buds are big and ready to open with a little warmth) and an open heart and mind. I was greeted warmly by Jim and Carla and there were others already there. Two different groups drove almost 2 hours to be in attendance!

As the evening progressed, I felt so comfortable with Carla, Jim and the other attendees--it was easy to interact. I intuited the acceptance and kindness of total strangers with no agenda other than the wish to become better people.  When it came time for Carla to channel the group Q'uo* we said a little prayer to set our intention for a positive connection. And then it began.

Carla's voice was her own, but the words came through with a more formal tone--a highly articulate, intelligent, and compassionate message in response to several questions asked. At first I got a little lost in the moments--my mind quivering, struggling to focus on the words, but I soon settled into the rhythm of Carla/Q'uo's evening offering. Seriously, I felt a rhythm to the energy present-my foot was slowly tapping it out and my body moving with it like a slow jazz ballad.

I will not go into the questions asked and the answers given by Q'uo this time because I did not take notes, but I will be more mindful in the future and try to relate some of what was said to you all. (Anyway, transcripts of these meditation sessions are actually posted on their website.) I left for the evening with a copy of Carla's The Wanderer's Handbook and feeling positively giddy with happiness and energy.

I cannot tell you how lucky I feel having access to this contact and it's historic/unprecedented information. I will be going back to the group again this weekend to attend another session. Why not?

*Q'uo is a group comprised of entities from different levels (densities) of being, including the Ra Group and Latwii.